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Apr 12

Wanting More

Wanting More

 

I want more

Is that so hard to ask?

I want more

I want more than I have

I want more than welfare and food stamps

More than living check to check

I want more than I can give

I want more than I can get

I want more than life without a father

More than life on the street

God, is than too much to ask?

Is it too much to want more for me?

Are my expectations too high?

Because I don’t want to die before I am 25

From AIDS or HIV

Or any other STD that might kill me

I want more out of life

I want to know more than pain

More than strife

Is that too much to request?

I want more than tears

More than heartache from the last

18 years

I want more than sadness

More than despair

More than this void that’s always there

Never leaving

A constant reminder

Of having less than more

Or less than enough

Reminding me that I want more

More from life; that’s tough

To get

Tough to have

Tough to maintain

I want more than happiness

Or maybe just more of it

More joy

More loving

More is all I ask

More is who I am

I want more than a job

I want more than a career

More than a life

More than a family

More than friends wanting more from me

I want more than second rate

More than average

More than okay

I want more than the projects

I want more than section 8

Not for myself but for my kids

I want more than single mothers

I want more than childless fathers

abandoning the

responsibility the

opportunity

that lies in the eyes of

my child

I want more than the end

I want more than a date

I want more than a boyfriend

I want more of myself

To want more from life

I want more of life

To want more from me

I want more to need less

I want more to give

I want more than the best

I want more to live

I want more than

which is

more than the life I live

I want more than

one night stands

lying about needing

a man

telling myself that

I can

do it on my own

when I really can’t

I want more than a broken heart

more than a mishandled soul

fragile and sore

abused and tired

of being undervalued

underappreciated

unwanted

by life

I want more than

love songs

that make me cry

more than wishing

for a better life

more than this feeling

of hopelessness

more than want

more than need

more than I have

I want more than a pen

to capture the

pain

in my eyes

in my heart

in my soul

in my life

that I cannot escape

with my words

I want more than tears

more than fears

to consume my thoughts

and guide my

actions

I want more of what

resides

in me to be what is represented

on the outside

of me

I want more

 

(c) 2010 AFL

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